Independent

Hehehe... almost looks like a CD cover.

Ah, Sanzo-sama. Instead of following the usual creed of "I want to find someone worth protecting", he follows "I want to find someone I don't have to protect... Or better yet, just leave me the hell alone. **unlocks the safety on his gun**".

...But maybe it's a bit more complicated than that... Check this out:

"You say you don't want to save anybody. It's true, isn't it? It's true, you don't want to save anybody-- you want to save everybody. You'd save the whole damn world, if it means you won't have to think about saving yourself."

"Shut up."

"And we don't count, do we? Me, Hakkai, Goku-- we're part of you, aren't we, Sanzo-sama? We're so fucking close that saving us is like saving yourself, and that's the one thing you can't do. We'd follow you off a cliff, damn all of us, we'd follow you into hell, and you'd let us, because otherwise it means something. You can't treat us special, because that'd mean we're worth something; we're important somehow. And if we're important, then you can't ignore that we see something in you. Whatever the hell it is. If our beliefs matter, then our belief in you must matter, and you couldn't have that."

"Go back to sleep, idiot," Sanzo said, wearily. "You're not making any sense."

"But you didn't let me drown." Gojyo was sliding back down the wall, his eyes closing against his will. There was still force in his voice, but the words were running together, dropping to a mumble. "Fucking terrible monk. You couldn't let me die. Or is that just because I'm nobody? I'm everybody... I'm everyone who needs saving, who doesn't matter except that you can save them and it doesn't mean anything... If I'd been Goku you'd have had to let me die..."

"Damn kappa."

Gojyo didn't reply, didn't move except for the rise and fall of his chest. Sanzo flicked ash from his cigarette, put his other hand to the half-youkai's forehead. His skin was, finally, warm to the touch. Too warm? Could hypothermia launch directly into a fever? He had no idea. Hakkai would know, but Hakkai wasn't here, was he? Which had really been the point of that ranting. Gojyo worried, all the time, more than Hakkai, even, and thought he hid it. He could be such a kid sometimes, worse than Goku.

I'm everyone... who doesn't matter except that you can save them and it doesn't mean anything...

"You really are stupid," Sanzo said aloud, and wasn't sure who he was talking to. When the cigarette had burned down to his fingers he tossed it into the far corner of the cave, took out another, and lit it.

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From And Miles to Go by X-parrot. Mrrrr... interesting... :3 Go read: [link]
GO READ NOW! Non-yaoi. All the better, I say. It's more meaningful that way. XD

It's easy to save someone you love. Still pretty easy to save someone you hate. It's harder to save someone you feel nothing for at all. Not that Gojyo doesn't mean anything, it's just... **throws hands up** Well whatever.